Something random before 2018 ends

    Family, Friends, Gifts, traveling, shopping, laughter, love…………….The season to get together, to have fun and to also plan for the coming year.

The year is finally ending. It’s been a ride; an experience and I would not trade it for anything. To be honest, when I think of the year’s lessons and trails, the laughter, the growth, the tears shed while holding my mouth so I wouldn’t draw attention, the prayers, the love given and gotten, the tests and the fear.... I am grateful for it all. These experiences have bent me and they are shaping me into the woman I know I need to be . I can’t count the number of times in 2018 I got down on my knees just to say thank you God, because in the tightest corners and at the darkest hours, He pulled through, picked this girl up and wiped her tears. 

You think you know yourself till life throws a test your way and you’re stuck there, confused, in pain and you wish you could hit the reset button.

Truthfully, when we make plans God laughs. Looking back at 1st/Jan/2018, the resolutions, the plans we had laid out, the people we had then. I wouldn’t have imagined this is how the year would have ended, but to be honest, I am thankful and it brings tears to my eyes at the overwhelming mercies and love this year brought my way. I could sit here and tell you the dreadful details of how horrible my year was, how I slipped in and out of depression and the other stories that touch, but WHAT DOES IT CHANGE? In life we win and we lose, we learn and we unlearn; we fall and we rise- how do you handle it all? (that is the most important aspect of life)

• I learned the power of thanksgiving even for the littlest things

• I learned the importance of peace and also when to compromise. 

• Give off negative vibes and you get it back, your mindset matters.

• I learned to calmly and logically deal with stuff as best I could. Yeah sometimes I still lose it, but TBH the other times I have my shit together. 

• I learned it is easy to forget the good things and emphasize only on the bad aspects

• I relearnt the joy of giving and not receiving 

• I relearnt love goes beyond family and friends and that patience is never unrewarded. 

So many things 2018 brought, I could write you a while newsletter about them.

While you think about the things 2018 taught you. Think about this -Have you actually sat down to count your blessings? When you count them do you count the people in your life, the things you take for granted, the things you shrug off as basic…like the air you breathe, the roof over your head, the smile that makes people stare at you in awe? I mean it’s very easy to emphasize on the bad things affecting your life and around you, Have you ever taught that in the midst of that huge problem there is actually a solution or something you could learn that will be important in the future?

While you continually complain about financial freedom and not having the latest iPhone. TAKE A BREATH and come out of your myopic shell, have you actually taken a day out of your long grumbling schedule to be randomly thankful, not just for yourself but for other people? While you constantly complain nobody has your back or loves you, have you actually evaluated yourself and considered you might be your own problem?

Through all the pain, the tears and shame, the remaining days of 2018 and 2019 will bring back all you lost and all you want. In our everyday life faith and hope for better days is something we cannot afford to lose. When things are not going your way speak positive things into existence and work towards it.

 Empty all that ego, pride and hatred in your heart, doesn't it weigh you down?

At this point I have no resolutions for 2019, but I know one thing for sure - MONEY MUST BE MADE. As an entrepreneur and also as a student I have picked up so may skills this year, TBH I can already taste the success for next year. I am finally doing the things I planned to do years ago, I am getting them off the drawing board and breathing life into them and I wont apologize for overreaching..NOT ANYMORE.

You should chase that dream, get it off the drawing board, write a new song, produce a new beat, paint something ridiculous, design that dress that has been in your head, write that book, capture that impossible moment......Through the journey remember that patience and hard-work never go unrewarded.

2019 will be your year and if it still isn't, then 2020 will be yours - to simply put this your time will come and when it does be ready to fulfill that role you were destined to fulfill.

DO WHAT YOU LOVE.......DO IT WELL.